Shani's Journal

Tune "NICE" - The Carters Mood   Undefeated  Affirmation I hold no judgments. I hold no expectations. I give up the need to know what happens tomorrow.  I'm exactly four weeks and one day away from my first semester of Nursing School. It still hasn't hit me that something I've been working so hard for has finally come to fruition. It's such a strange feeling to finally start hearing "yes" when you've gotten used to a pattern of rejection. This week, there have been so many messages from the universe, but there was one recurring message that kept finding its way into my day to day. It's quite simple; NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF . This sounds beyond corny, but it really is one of those quotes that stands on its own. We have so many moments where we think, "Screw it. I just don't care anymore." I learned very quickly that this mentality gets you NOWHERE. It took me five years to get my undergrad degree. While i...

Wow. That's all I can think as I write my very first blog post. I have a lengthy experience with physical journals, so this is a different dynamic for me. I got my very first journal from a book fair when I was ten. Looking back now, I had no business writing the things I was writing, which is probably why my dad found it and threw it in the trash. Yup... pretty dramatic. But one thing for certain were my feelings. The fellow pisces in me had so much emotions poured into those pages, and no one to share those thoughts with. I did have my older sister, but with only two years in between us, I didn't think she had the wisdom I needed at the time. Growing up in a traditional Caribbean household didn't give me the most open outlet for my feelings. My parents were taught that little girls must be seen, and not heard. Thus, my opinions stayed right in that little noggin of mine. 14 years and three more journals later, my voice has been heard loud and clear. I've foun...